… I’d like to write about something like the Frankenkamera, or the Pre-Raphaelites, strange places like Grodno, or anything, but it does not work. I would like to visit all the blogs in my list of “favorites”, as it is called by the machine, and say something more or less funny, witty even, but it does not work: I am not funny or witty, I am just terribly tired.
No, no terrible things happened, nobody died in the last six weeks, no projects went down the drain causing major desperation, just the normal grind. But it reaches the substance now, slowly like the damn drip of water holing the stone. Waiting is a trap.
Of course there are things to be done, like taking care of the business website, doing more on g+ – what could be fun, given the strange mix of people, who added me to their circles -, or just hovering the room … No, chez mago is not turning into a filthy flea pit, I iron my shirts and brush my shoes, no neglect. Living under the bridge, cracking up another can of cheap beer, the usual and normal fears of the slowly but steadily sinking middle class … I have cheap white and my desk. “It” still works, I still have an aim (kind of), an idea about what I want.
And there is always science, what we call arrogantly Kultur-Wissenschaft, history or else (Volkskunde once), a large playground, a lot of fields and topics to play and fool around with, to use the brain, to wonder and get emotional about … all this wanking does not pay. But it keeps one away from total desperation, it’s always amazing with what kind of nonsense one can make it into the news and for what utter bullshit one can rake in Forschungsgelder.
I visited a kind of informal coloquium in the last week, saw a lot of people I knew for some time, it could have been a kind of family reunion … and I felt a bit out of place, like the “ex” who occasionally visited. I did basically feel not well and left early.
I learned very early the fine art of camouflage, it’s like a suit I wear. Kleider machen Leute, clothes make people, but not humans.
Just some music.
Here should appear a youtube, but wp does not want to link.
Here is the link.
Some strange music by Ted REICHMAN. Give it a chance.