“Just in time”, ha !
Last week was foggy, grey & wet. I got up and drove through fog in the morning, and in the afternoon alike. At least I tried to make my bed regularly, as The Mistress advised, but it naturally became disorderly when I entered it for siesta.
I spent the last week reading and sleeping. Even writing, at least a bit.
And remembering a lot, things that happened to me, to family & friends ; situations I would like to forget because they were awkward and / or embarrassing ; situations that were nice, pleasant, joyful.
It is not drawing a balance, a willful and conscious summing up, it is just my brain bubbling along in the bony cauldron I carry on my shoulders. Of course some things are best forgotten – I would very much like to have a tool with which I could erase some memories totally. But I find it possible to put them to sleep in a certain way of self~ – yes, what ? It is not “hypnosis”, perhaps more of an auto-suggestion. I imagine something like a bunker, a concrete box, where I lock some things in. Astoundingly enough I think it works. Of course unwanted images can escape, but they do pretty seldom.
Most of the time I am not “thinking”, it thinks. A trail or train of thoughts, images, memories, drawing strange lines to connect diverse topics, sometimes at least – most of the time I think it is simply straightforward … I should read HILDESHEIMERs (Ger., Eng., obit) Tynset (norge) (location) now, guess this is the book for the time “between the years”, after christmas & before new year.
Apropos books, the heap becomes unstable, so I should put them back in the shelves, but not without showing off previously – so sometimes this week you, venerated reader, will be shown a reading list. And perhaps some thoughts about “fake” & “news”, I find this all a bit disturbing.
This Sunday Music comes from Queen Esther MARROW (Ger., Eng.), Things Ain’t Right. That’s for sure. Have they ever been ?
I hope you enjoy the music, and have a peaceful week.
“Just in time”, ha !